I don’t regret things a lot. Hardly ever really. If it happened, it happened & it was my choice for it to happen.
On a completely different note I realized today that I have one regret, (one that I can think of).
And it’s probably a silly one, but until I really thought about it, I didn’t find it important?
I WISH I HAD TAKEN MORE BELLY PICS WHILE I WAS PREGNANT!!!
That might seem like a silly request but I wish I could look back at the photos & see how my belly grew each month. I was pregnant just over a year ago but I’m struggling to remember how I looked.
“Probably because I couldn’t stand looking at myself for the last four months of my pregnancy!”
It’s not that I hated the way I looked. I was just so afraid that I wasn’t attractive anymore. So if I saw that in myself, surely Byren would think the same. So one conclusion – INSECURUTY came in quite early! There I was, with less & less of my favorite clothing fitting me. I was rolling the tears at that stage & poor Byren just didn’t know how to comfort me anymore.
“I had this amazing gift of turning any compliment into a complaint back then.”
Getting over it (eventually) & then wondering how much worse it would be getting. People kept telling me I had a perfect preggy belly, not big at all, like I swallowed a pea. Well, I think it would make more sense if they said it was a watermelon, because that’s how I was experiencing it!
Now a year later, & no belly (& a toddler roaming in my house), I wish I had taken more pictures. I realise that with time, image-memories will slip away & I’ll hardly remember the look, less the feel.
But the few images I have of my pregnant belly, I’ll cherish dearly.
“Even if I have another baby, it won’t be the same as with the first kiddo.”
On a more positive thought, I’m proud to boast about my body now. 14 months after having a baby, this is what my body looks like now. I know very few women who are secretly killing me in their heads, (some even say it out loud).
I don’t have an answer to how to get back into shape after a baby.
Well, I don’t know… I breastfed for only two months. I haven’t exercised extremely since before pregnancy. I jogged for a month (once a week) when Monster turned 13 months old. No real commitment was involved to my “wrecked” body.
One theory I do have for the weight loss to my before-pregnancy body is my metabolism went from extremely slow to “spiral out of control” fast. Which would make sense, I guess.
Haters please don’t hate. I didn’t ask for this – I was blessed by it!